It’s honestly a lot more difficult than I thought it would be to maintain a blog. I’ve tried for ages to do so, and it’s surprising I’ve even been able to keep this thing going for this long. Don’t fret–I’m not quitting! It’s just scary to look at my queue and see that it’s empty for once.
Now, the only reason why I’m able to have a post every single day is because of Tumblr’s queue system. It’s pretty great. I honestly don’t have the presence of mind to go, “Hey, I need a post today.” The queue system alleviates the worry of not knowing if I’m posting often enough. I can always guarantee a post because of the queue system.
So why am I talking about it today? Because I’ve been frazzled, to keep it simple. I’ve been able to maintain my queue by putting 10-30-50 posts in at a time. And now, the well is dry for the first time since I started using the queue system way earlier this year. It scares me a little bit that I’m starting to have troubles maintaining this.
It scares me that I feel like I’m running out of things to say, quotes to quote. I have plenty of writing advice stored in my head. I really do. But it doesn’t always come to my fingers when I need it to. Sometimes the words have to sit and stew until they’re ready. Sometimes they’re never ready.
It’s really hard to sit down and say, “I’m going to write about writing today.”
Writing is the majority of what I do. Which can make it hard to talk about. I don’t know if other people feel the same way about it, so I’m scared of coming off like a lunatic. I’m unsure if my ideas make sense to others. I’ve never had much of a sounding board for this blog. I rarely get responses.
But you’re still here. You’re still reading this post. You’re still subscribed.
So that says something. And that’s why I’m going to keep trying to give you guys posts to encourage you to think about writing every single day. But if I vanish for a few days, don’t worry. I’ll be back. I’m going to try to go on a queue spree very soon and try to get caught up.
Every time I feel like I’m caught up, I get complacent. And then I fall behind further than before when it starts to get closer to time to act.
So I’m going to do everything I can not to get complacent. I will write posts. I will find more quotes (getting increasingly difficult, honestly). I will keep this Tumblog running.
Feedback, encouragement, anything you can say will help. I’d love to hear from you all. And if you don’t want to say anything, that’s okay. But if you do? I’m always happy to hear it.
Above all, I value honesty. Truth is so important to me, not only as a person but also as a writer. I want your honesty. And more importantly, I promise to always be honest with all of you. If you have questions or concerns, don’t be afraid to say something to me about them. We can talk. I’m not a mind-reader. I have no idea what your hopes and worries are. I can talk about them in a post if you don’t want to have a conversation about it. I’d really like to hear things you’d like for me to post about.
If you don’t want to? That’s okay, too. I just wanted to take the time to remind you that I’m a person sitting at a laptop, typing out my thoughts and feelings for all of you to read (or hear, if you have one of those programs that reads my posts to you).
I’m only human, but I’m here.