This is a personal post! Get caught up on the details here.
Hey, everyone. I know things have been a little sporadic lately. And I have tons of wonderful questions from my darling followers.
My social anxiety has been nothing short of out of control.
And I recently realized why. Ever since IMing and texting became a regular, normal thing, I have had troubles. From mean girls getting my AIM handle to getting stalked and harassed, instant messaging has been a problem for me in one way or another.
When I was teaching, even then, I was still afraid to check my e-mail!
I’m still having trouble getting to a psychiatrist. I have met nothing more than red tape and dead ends.
And that’s, of course, not even half of the frustrating stuff that’s been going on lately.
The good news is that I got a new contract for the next six months, and we’re in the final stretch with editing another client’s book that will be debuting next month.
I’ve been stressed, depressed, anxious–the whole works. It’s hard to write when you’re depressed.
It’s been almost a year since I started freelancing, and while I’m glad to be doing it, it’s still very difficult to be my own boss at times.
I’m trying to get my life balanced out, but it seems like I’m missing something. There’s something I need to be trying to do, but I don’t know what it is.
My short-term memory has gotten pretty bad, and I’m more tired than ever.
Anyway, I love each and every one of you. <3 Please don’t be mad that I haven’t replied to you yet–I promise I’ll get to it when I’m healthier. I can do one or two every so often like I have been, but I’ve been pretty neglectful, and I’m truly, deeply sorry about that.
And remember: no matter how much things suck, it gets better.
Stand up every time you are knocked down.
It is okay to cry. And it is also okay to be afraid of getting back up.
But when it comes down to it, you need to do what is best for you, whether that’s ending a toxic friendship or learning how to manage your time better.
Everyone needs different things, and that doesn’t make you better or worse than anyone else.
You are loved. You are wanted. You are important.
Embody love to the best of your ability, and you will go far.
Take one step and then another step. Your journey will be long and hard. But you can do it.
Don’t take the plunge. Please stay here with us.