My depression has been horrific for the past two months. There isn’t an honest to God day where suicide doesn’t cross my mind. My moms trying everything. Doctors too. Nothing is working and I’m about at my ends reach.
I told Jared on his Facebook live video how much the AlwaysKeepFighting campaign meant to me. That I battle depression daily and this is a true inspiration to me. Nothing could have prepared me for what he said.
He said these words with a genuine touch that really made me cry my damn eyes out. Telling me that “you are a brave, powerful soul. I’m sorry for your battles, but I’m proud of you that you’re battling daily and you’re still here. You’re stronger than I will ever me.” His words quite literally shook me to my core. As if having somebody that you look up to notice you, but to say what he did….
It’s the simple sweet things that this man does on a daily basis that really and truly helps people get the courage to keep on fighting. I admire Jared. I look up to him. I strive to be half of the amazing and kind man that he is, to make a difference in this world. He is my hero along with many others. He’s my superman. And hearing MY HERO tell me that I’m stronger than he will ever be, and that I’m a brave and powerful soul, I was at a loss for words. I still am.
There isn’t a single word I can say to describe how I feel. Never in my life (no matter how short) did I ever EVER imagine Jared Padalecki telling me these words. For him to share his love and support to my daily fight. MINE. It’s an unrealistic thing. It doesn’t feel real.
If you took the time to read this, then I hope in some way that this amazing man has somehow touched your heart as he has touched mine. Please remember, taking even a minute of your day to spread some love can really effect people as it has for me.
While his words didn’t cure my mental illness, it did do something else. It gave me hope.
I felt the need to reblog this again mainly for myself. I’m being evaluated to determine if I need to be placed under 24/7 watch at a mental health facility. I’m apparently “actively suicidal” so I can’t be left alone. I’m being told I’m more than likely going to an inpatient facility in my town because I’m such a high risk to myself. These words I need now more than ever.